Load of crap.....

Sometimes I think life can be just a load of crap. Obviously I'm not in a very good mood. Down with sinus problems - don't know whether its hayfever or something more sinister. At least telfast seems to be working at the moment....which i guess is a good sign. deja vu or just a repeating cycle. to me, things seem to happen in cycles. you're repeating history over and over again. things might differ a little each time but by and large its all the same. what am i aiming for? what's my ultimate goal? i don't have an answer for that. maybe in high school it was to get into uni. now in uni, its to get a job. but what now? although there are things accomplished, it doesn't really seem to be accomplished - its more the opening of more decisions, more problems and more scepticism. each time, more obstacles arise and you question whether you're heading in the right direction or making more mistakes. i suppose pessimism is what i'm feeling now.