2009

It has been over a year since I have last blogged.

Time has past pretty quickly...felt like many things has happened though at the same time, things haven't changed much either - if that makes sense. Maybe that's why I didn't see a need to blog, cause there is nothing really significant to add. Life has been as it always has - steady, plodding along.

Since April 2008, what has happened:
- completed CA
- changed jobs
- joined the gym
- started a 5000 piece puzzle

This accomplishment (or lack of) is quite a disappointment. Since finishing CA in July last year, productivity has declined. I feel like time has slowly faded away, with myself doing nothing productive. There are still so many things on my to-do list which has not been even started. Somehow I even doubt I will even attempt to.

The more I sit around, the more I feel that time is slipping through and I should be doing something. Enough of the thinking and more of the action.

My next goal will be to do Toastmasters - hopefully I can juggle between work and extra-cirruclar. Next time I blog, hopefully I will be able to say doing Toastmasters will be my next accomplishment. I have heard from people that it is tough doing Toastmaster because of the challenge it provides. However I am not phase by that idea and it is exactly that reason that I want to give it a go.

Bit by bit, I will cross off my to-do list...and do the things I want to do in life.

Wish me luck....

Hello again

study is starting again...so that means procrastination and hence more frequent blogging will resume. For the past 4 months I have not opened a book or done anything remotely related to accounting (with the exception of work of course).

how good was that 4 months. but must say it went pretty quickly. many things happened during this time - whether it be meeting new people, quad biking, kayaking, archery, bowling, k, ice skating, going out for dinner and just chilling at home. it wasn't all fun and games..some disappointing things happened..but at least more good than bad.

another chapter of the book has closed, with another opening. what will the next couple of months bring?? the unknown....

being single all my life, another thing crossed my mind. will i ever meet the right guy? i just never seem to have that security to move friendship onto the next level. it doesn't seeem right. maybe its cause i haven't met the person yet. maybe i'm just stalling. i don't know...actually sometimes i enjoy being single..other times..i admit i do feel lonely. but alas....study calls..and i must must pass this last module. anything else will have to fall down in my priorities list!

am still young and plenty of time ahead :D

The same ol'

It's always when exam time is approaching that I blog. Noone is online cause everyone else is busy studying for their own exams...or busy with other things in life. Me sitting in front of the pc, trying for the one millionth to stay off msn (without much success) attempt to study. But as expected, my productivity is never as good as I anticipate.

Thoughts plague my mind like a disease. Playing with the words, what if this, what if that..deciding what to do after exams etc. I'm jealous of those who can concentrate so well and be able to work efficiently but also have time to play. For me on the other hand, the time is wasted, With me doing nothing, gaining nothing. The mind of a procrastinator.

Prior to every exam I say to myself - I must waste less time. What I am currently doing and thinking is not going to help me pass my exam. Leave those useless thoughts till after the exams. But I don't understand. Why am I not convinced? Why can't I have some self control. Frustrated and stressed is my current status.

Frustrated that I'm not getting anywhere with my study. Stressed about the amount of work I need to go through. Angry that I'm wasting precious time whilst everyone else around is hard at work. Why can't I be like them? Why is concentration so hard?

In fact the very question and word on my mind is:

"WHY"?

Ideal home....

How good would it be to be able to live in the city but also enjoy the tranquil surrounding of the Royal Botanic Garden.

A place I can't afford. But at least I can dream about it...

The significance of poker....

You see the work 'poker'..what do you think of?

Its amazing how one card game - poker can be used in so many different context.

Almost everyone at work seems to know how to play the game (except me). Its been used as the theme of some movies..and now just reading through my accounting notes, its been drawn as an analogy to making investment decisions.

Investments, gambling, risk taking...i guess it's all the same.

We say we don't gamble...but how un true is that? Life IS a gamble..and each day, we gamble our lives away....

Sunday....

It's definitely is not the best weekend to be out on the beach or even to be outside cause it's just so cold and miserable. But neither do I want to be stuck indoors all weekend!! My plan of exercising in the morning has fallen through. Instead, I've decided to satisfy my stomach with some choc and hazlenut cookies with a cup of nice steaming hot chocolate! :D

I have a sudden craving for Hurricanes right now. Don't know why! Maybe cause I just want an excuse to head outside! If only weekends are 3 days instead of the 2...I think it would make things just that little better!

Passing time...

Sometimes, I sit and wonder. When we have something - we don't treasure it. When we lose it, that is when we really wonder, maybe I should have treasured it more.

The ungratefulness of human nature.

On the flip side, sometimes we treasure what we have so much that we don't realise how tightly we are holding on. And in the end, only to realise things will eventually change.

So what am I talking about?

I don't know. Random thoughts on a random day...

Figures..friday is always weird...

Back to study..

Fun Friday

Yes yes..i KNOW i should study..but promise I'll go study after blogging. Just wanted to have this recorded so I won't forget..although I must say, it will be a long remembered night.

The day began in the office with nothing much to do cause I wasn't booked on anything. So took it easy, did my admin, emails and a little bit of study. In the arvo, we went Paddington lawn bowls for our end of busy season event. It was actually quite fun and surprisingly it didn't rain. Each of us were split into teams. My team came first...counting from the end :D Sad to see one of us ex-grads leaving...best of luck!

Night time came dinner...and OMG...one of the funniest night and 'weirdest' topics of conversation at Spanish Terrazas. That place wasn't that bad either...live music, mixed tapas and seafood paella with a bunch of 'crazy' people makes it an interesting combination.

After food, there was more food...riveria and the ice cream was amazingly big. The topics from dinner was brought over to dessert with some people laughing uncontrollably. I won't even dare stating what the topics of conversations were. Let's just say it was...crazy, hilarious and fun! Hidden thoughts were spoken aloud :P

Frustration

Some things are just harder to get over..

Chop chop moving right along...easier said than done! I'm sure I'm over it..I once learnt in psyc the more you supress a thought, the more likely it will reoccur because you'll be triggering certain 'nodes' in your memory. What I didn't pay attention to in class was how to forget..i think it was along the lines of preoccupying your mind with something else so you wont even have time to think about ur suppressed thought.

The less distractions for me the better...msn, gtalk, facebook, blah blah blah


Right now I NEED to study...study...study...

Habits are hard to change

I have my exams in 15 days...not long at all considering the amount of paper we have to sift through...

Prior to every exam for the past 7 years I suffer from what is called procrastination. Online, checking email...it doesn't make life easy.

My aim is the stay offline as much as I could and hopefully increase my productivity over the next 2 weeks..2 weeks only..atm I'm just trying to justify with myself that nothing cannot wait for another 2 weeks.

I really need to study...I really should study..and now I really will go study...

Wish me luck :D

In hibernation until the exams are over (hopefully)

Well not hopefully..but definitely...

Interesting thoughts...

Have been up since 4:30am...gone out came back..done my morning exercise and planning to study for the rest of the day. But what's a day without 'some' procrastination.

Reading other random people's blogs and thoughts can be quite interesting. People with different opinions, ideas, goals, dreams and views on life. Putting things in perspective, life isn't all that bad. There's study and work. But really what's to life without them. Study will 'supposedly' make you more knowledgeable, work is vital for a living. All aside, there will be times for fun and play, holidays and the like. As the saying goes, "No pain, no gain".

Are we all just taking things for granted? How much do we show appreciation to those who really care? How often do you think that life is bad? When was the last time that you said things are bad. What is bad? Relatively speaking, I don't think things are as bad as it seems because there will always be more worse case scenarios.

I've always remembered this quote and found it quite meaningful. "When you says things are bad, compared to what?" What benchmark are you using to measure the 'badness'?


"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.” - Fredrick Keonig

Whatever you think...

I don't know what to write about anymore...

Life is not interesting enough to write about - work, home, study and the pattern continues...life? need some reorganising...aim: better time management skills

Mind is too convoluted to decipher - am i just too dumb, or are things really that challenging? i dont understand..this, that or anything.

Frustration

Frustrated, annoyed and once again, procrastinating.

I thought I will be able to concur procrastinating. It is really nothing but the mind. The time you spend doing other things or nothing totals to a ridiculous amount of time. Why do that? Time cannot be reversed, just as some things in the world, there's no second chance.

What I think I am lacking is some direction. Speaking to some people really amazed me..the ideas they think about, the direction they see, the things they achieve.

What are my goals? Where do I see myself going? What do I want out of life and work? These are the questions I am trying to find answers to. Hopefully it will be sooner than later!

Another random thoughts:
- Sometimes I just feel so 'out of place'
- I feel like going on a road trip
- I don't understand the 'thrill' of clubbing
- What could I do during the easter long weekend?

Strange but true..

I had one of those weird days...

I passed my exams..woohoo!! And congratulations to everyone that passed..its fabulous that noone I know has failed!! :D

One would be expected to be so happy and exuberant!! But on the other extreme I found myself crying...from sadness not from happiness. I don't know how to explain..in fact I don't really want to explain. But that maybe I can put an end to something. Maybe I can now see things in a different light and move in a more meaningful direction.

Things, I believe all happen or don't happen for a reason. It is these little events that happen on a day to day basis that build up to create a meaning.

As a little reward for myself, I ended up at the Lindt cafe at Cockle Bay. It wasn't as great as I expected. A hot choc with a slice of chocolate hazlenut gateau costed me $13...ummm definitely sky high prices!!

Driving expedition

Not so much of an expedition..but driving from north to south and north again in one day is something that I don't do often. So where were my destinations on Australia Day?

Bexley North - Hurstville - St Leonards - Caringbah - Epping

It good to catch up with people...but driving late at night is definitely not safe. As 'usual', I had my near misses. Glad I was home in one piece.

I'm going to have to stay clear of the city one day. Almost every weekend I'm in the city and its kinda driving me nuts!! Absolutely nothing interesting in the city - well not that I have discovered..never seem to do anything different!! Ah wells..life goes on...

Into the new year...

17 days into the new year...

no new year resolution thus far..

great to hear some interesting and happy news from friends...

tired from work....increasingly so throughout the week

looking forward to long weekend...or even just weekend in general...

watching the world evolve around me...

Making you happy...

I'm always trying to do things to make people happy...to give them surprises, lending a helping hand..

but sometimes sitting back and reflecting..who is there to make me happy??

sometimes its disheartening...true when helping people you really don't expect anything back...the feeling of satisfaction you get from it is amazing..but sometimes when you're lonely..these things do matter...

dont get me wrong..i love helping out...but its times when I'm depressed and think about things that it does make me wonder...

Gosford

My first 'away' job for a week!! At no other place - Gosford. We stayed at Willows at Wyoming. The client even suggested we stay at Terrigal. That idea sounds so tempting but somehow I don't think that would be considered for next time (unfortunately)!!

The place we stayed at wasn't thrilling but we had some hilarious moments! Classic examples of mis-communication. First day, getting ready for dinner...'see you at 6'...we had 20mins. I was thinking maybe I'd just wear my work clothes for dinner..my colleague wore jeans and thongs. Day two..exact same scenario...since he wore cas for the first day, I decided to wear cas on the second day. But he was thinking exactly the same...and wore work clothes since thats what I did the first day. So funny!! We decided to go to a water side bar for dinner...thinking 6pm must be early cause there was noone there. Reached the steps and saw the sign 'monday closed'. Drove around and walked around with indecisiveness as to where and what to eat! Finally settled on '92 Thai'. Funky deco...red walls, green table cloth....but the food wasn't too bad.

Only during this week did I realise how bad my sense of direction was!! Once too many times did I suggest the wrong direction!!

Second night dinner was just at the place we stay. Steak mignion with mustard. It so reminded me of the food from Lake Macquarie (actually I thought the steak at Lake Mac was even better!! even though that restaurant was suppose to be one of the best at Central Coast'!

Third night dinner was the best - atmosphere wise and choice of food!! We finally returned to the place that was closed on Monday - 'Iguana'. It was the 38 degree day but it was late afternoon with a slight afternoon sea breeze. We sat overlooking the water, watching some people water rafting...just as well that night oysters was special for $15 per dozen. Baby octapus salad with sweet chilli was just what i felt like!!

Despite all that food, guess I can't complain too much! Finishing work generally at 5pm....though there were a few late night. But even during the first two night when we did finish on time, I just found it rather tiring.

Another not-so-great-highlight was the internet connection..out of the 3 nights I was there, it worked only for 2 hours.

Another 'dilemma' was deciding what to have for lunch each day. Day one was frozen pasta lasagne from Coles, day two was mongolian chicken with rice at a place called 'yummy noodles' and third day was terayaki chicken udon at 'Noodles Paradise'....

Don't know why I'm just documenting the food. Maybe cause that's the best part of the entire week!! :D

That wonderful feeling....

Have you ever done something that you groaned and complained about. You sit back and think...why in the world am I doing this? You hate it, its wasting time!! But yet you persist.....don't know why....

When the task is accomplished..you think..what else can I do...let them come and collect it..or make some home delivery...again actions can be unexplainable....I chose the latter. Two home deliveries. Why? Unsure....maybe the feeling of satisfaction...the feeling that your friends will be happy and grateful...in return for what? Nothing at all.....is that unrequited 'love'..hahaha...maybe not...maybe just the love of friendship....

Despite all the groaning...in the end, I wasn't complaining....the feeling of accomplishment...of doing something for nothing...of purely helping.....that intrinsic satisfaction....

Fun facts....

10 April 19XX

Your date of conception was on or about 19 July 1983 which was a Tuesday.

You were born on a Tuesday
under the astrological sign Aries.
Your Life path number is 9.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 7 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445800.5.
The golden number for 1984 is 9.
The epact number for 1984 is 27.
The year 1984 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/2/1984 and ending 2/19/1985.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rat.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Hawk; your plant is Dandelion.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paony, the second month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 8 Nisan 5744.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 9 Nisan 5744.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.10.15.16 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 10 tun 15 uinal 16 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Tuesday, 9 Rajab 1404 (1404-7-9).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 22 April 1984.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 22 April 1984.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 7 March 1984.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 10 June 1984.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 17 June 1984.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 25 September 1984.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Sunday, 15 April 1984.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 6 March 1984.

As of 10/30/2006 4:18:22 AM EST
You are 22 years old.
You are 270 months old.
You are 1,177 weeks old.
You are 8,238 days old.
You are 197,716 hours old.
You are 11,862,978 minutes old.
You are 711,778,702 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Haley Joel Osment (1988) Mandy Moore (1984) Ryan Merriman (1983)
Lil McClarnon (1981) Steven Seagal (1952) John Madden (1936)
Omar Sharif (1932) Max Von Sydow (1929) Chuck Connors (1921)
Harry Morgan (1915) Joseph Pulitzer (1847) Commodore Matthew Perry (1794)

Top songs of 1984
Like a Virgin by Madonna When Doves Cry by Prince
Jump by Van Halen Footloose by Kenny Loggins
What's Love Got to Do with It by Tina Turner Against All Odds by Phil Collins
I Just Called to Say I Love You by Stevie Wonder Ghostbusters by Ray Parker Jr.
Karma Chameleon by Culture Club Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go by Wham!

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.22426614481409 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)



There are 162 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 23 candles.

Those 23 candles produce 23 BTUs,
or 5,796 calories of heat (that's only 5.7960 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.63 US ounces of water with that many candles.


In 1984 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1984 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1984 in the US there were 2,487,000 marriages (10.5%) and 1,155,000 divorces (4.9%)
In 1984 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1984 the population of Australia was approximately 15,677,282.
In 1984 there were approximately 234,034 births in Australia.
In 1984 in Australia there were approximately 108,655 marriages and 43,124 divorces.
In 1984 in Australia there were approximately 109,914 deaths.


Your birthstone is Diamond

The Mystical properties of Diamond

Diamonds are said to increase personal clarity to help one see things clearly as well as be straight-forward and honest. Supposedly, the higher quality the diamond, the better it is supports these qualities.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Opal, Quartz, White Sapphire

Your birth tree is

Rowan, the Sensitivity
Full of charm, cheerful, gifted, without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.



There are 56 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 69 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing gibbous.



Birth Day