Wasted

This morning I "couldn't" wake up. By the time I finally got out of bed it was half an hour later than I was suppose to. Fully rushing and all - didn't even finish my cup of tea!..haha

Can one actually experience anger, frustration and find something hilariously funny all at once?? Well, when I got to class, it was empty except for two people - the very people in my group. We found it rather puzzling why the whole class realised that we didn't have class yet my group members and me turned up!! We're pretty sure the tutor never said there was no class today...but then...hmmmm.....

Can't go into the psyc labs anymore cause the psyc account has already been reset. NO MORE LAB ACCESS!!! how sad..don't like the feeling of being ostracised My only option now is the quad labs...which is very annoying. I've discovered in one of the quad lab, the usb port works but you cannot access anything - not even sirius, yahoo or ninemsn. In another one of the quad lab, you could access pretty much everything including icq but usb port does not work!!!!

hahaha....how did i know someone wasn't going to turn up to lecture...must be the 6th sense...i just knew it - somehow!!

Random

The rate at which i am blogging suggest pre-exam fever has struck. symptoms such as frustration, annoyance, procrastination, ranting like a maniac and staring into space are just some of the fatal signs.

"Our fatigue is often caused not by work, but by worry, frustration and resentment" - Dale Carnegie

"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion . . . . I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward." - Kurt Vonnequt Jr

""Good advice is often annoying - bad advice never is"

"When life seems just a dreary grind; and things seem fated to annoy; say something nice to someone else and watch the world light up with joy."

"Interruptions can be viewed as sources of irritation or opportunities for service, as moments lost or experience gained, as time wasted or horizons widened. They can annoy us or enrich us, get under our skin or give us a shot in the arm. Monopolize our minutes or spice our schedules, depending on our attitude toward them." - William Arthur Ward

Sometimes ranting helps to smother the burning flames, other times it enrages the fire and makes it even more strong. Yes you probably have no idea what I'm talking about - neither do I. random thoughts. random talking. random everything. maybe life is just a random act....whatever....

Bleak....

Life is such a bum sometimes....it feels so dark and miserable just like the weather outside. Maybe daylight saving only feels good when there is actually some sunlight. Otherwise, the day just seems to fly by so quickly, especially if by the time one wakes up, its already past noon. 3pm now and haven't done anything productive. Don't know why I'm online. Don't know how to pass the procrastination stage. Don't know how to write my assignments or to study for the exams...feeling so lost and sad...maybe its the thought of procrastinating that leads to the action of procrastinating.

"I have a theory about the human mind. A brain is a lot like a computer. It will only take so many facts, and then it will go on overload and blow up." - Erma Bombeck

Un-mastery

There are just some things in life that certain people have difficulty in mastering no matter how hard they try to learn....program...

while(assignment ! finished) {
procrastinate
procrastinate
procrastinate
do sleep
}

if (end of week == survive){
one final exam down
procrastinate more
try to study
four exams to go
}
else back to uni for another semester

Daylight Saving tmr...

Just a reminder to turn forward the clocks one hour before you sleep tonight!!

YAY....I just like daylight savings!! But then that means one less hour of sleep tonight!

Buggered....

No matter how hard I try to finish things before the deadline...it just always drag on until the last minute!! Why's that???

How human stupidity leads to embarrassment.....

How should I begin....ok..i'm not a person who usually goes 'red' in the face, nor am I proned to embarrassment!!! But some strange vibes have been hovering above me...two embarrassing events in two consecutive is NOT good!!

Yesterday, had legt lecture...mr zumbo was the lecturer...basically was standing at the door like a guard at the castle stopping everyone who left. this makes him sound sinister..haha. there is only a certain amount of time people should shake hands before it starts to feel uncomfortable....just let go!!

back to my topic of human stupidity. we had to estimate the number of clinical psychologists in some region within NSW. I guess i) i wasn't listening clearly and ii) i must have been thinking about something else. anyway, to emphasise my tendency to be the odd-one-out, i estimated the number to be 1750 when in fact the answer was 230. Its true that you should always stick with your first instincts. Originally, I put 750 (even though that is still outrageously wrong) but decided to stick a '1' in front of 750 in the last second. Being the EXTREME outlier, i managed to score myself a prize for being sooooo optimistic....how bizarre. getting something for being so 'different' and so wrong. To make matters worse it was annouced in the lecture....sometimes I wish I was invisible...

HANGING......

One word is all I need......HANGING........

(It's a pun)

Frustration

Very frustated. The most annoying about writing a psyc report is finding RELEVANT articles...have spent the past 3 days searching - finding NOTHING....feels like I've been so inefficient, wasting so much time!!!

How can other people be so efficient and manage their time so well....very depressing thought!!!

Between week13-week14 - this is my life:
- 1 presentation....in progress
- 2 psyc report....in initial stages
- 3 essays.....yet to be started

Exam period:
- 4 exams...last one on 25th November (if there are no amendments to the final tt)

Water-fall

It's no wonder they don't allow food or drink in the computer lab. Just when I thought I had nothing to blog about this weekend, something happens. I split a glass of water on the desk which 'flood' the base of the monitor. Luckily my CPU was separate and neatly tucked away from potential devastation. On the other hand, my notes and other stuff on the desk were not so lucky. Oh well, guess there's a loss and gain in everything....

Mini Black Friday...

Have been surviving on 4 hours sleep for the past two days. By my standards, that's tough cause I usually have at least 8-9 hours..haha. Great way to begin the day. Had presentation on 9am but before that we had to print off some transparency. The most logical place to go is the library. Where does all our funding go???? The ENTIRE library only had one transparency copier machine - which was OUT OF ORDER!!! I think the reason for the 'out of order' was they ran out of transparency slides...what the??? The only other options were quad store and blockhouse. We only have 5 mins before class started so no way were we going to go blockhouse. We went down to quad store...the guy at the counter said we could use our library copy card - but no..it doesn't work. So G went to buy a copy card with $8 credit - only to find out that we also needed to purchase the transparencies separately - again to which THEY HAD NONE!!!....we gave up in the end...so glad the presentation wasn't counted otherwise it would have been SOOOOO bad...

We stuffed up our experiment big time cause we lefted out a vital step...oh well - we'll just let it be! no time to change, no mood to bother, no motivation to care....

Muddled with time....

I had all the intention of having lunch at 12:45pm as I had uni at 3pm. However I got confused at 12:15pm...suddenly I thought I had class at 2pm. Rushed rushed and rushed...cause I haven't even brushed my teeth. I constantly had the thought I had to leave the house at 12:45 for class at 2!!!!!! Then at the bus stop, waiting the bus, thinking....what the...it struck me again that I don't have class until 3. Oh well, can't be bothered going back home.

HAPPY HAPPY....haha...found my USB lid...instead of on the bed, this time it was under my sis's bed...hmmm.......

The Waiting Game

So much for waking up an hour earlier than usual. I thought I'd go to uni an hour earlier to do some work. But what happened was that I spent that extra hour waiting for the bus!! 7:45...8:00...8:15...8:30....8:45....8:50...finally I see the 303!!!

An hour waiting at the bus stop...so glad I wasn't the only one. One guy had 3 cigarettes before the bus come...the other 2 guys kept on stepping onto the chair and were debating whether the buses they saw coming were 478 or 303. At least there were 'some' entertainment.

An extra week extension for our psyc report!! Yay!!

Lost, found and lost again....

I've been losing things all day today...clear objects are good..but when they become lost - its bad. I'm talking about my USB lid. I put it on the table...I'm so sure I did. Only when I went to retrieve the lid - it was no longer on the table. Did I move it and put it somewhere else?? I don't remember. I still remember seeing it on the table - the picture still vividly clear in my mind - yet its not there anymore. Where could I have put it?? I've done a carpet style search of two rooms. Nothing to be found. But then again, I lost some paper clips earlier in the day. Again did a carpet search. Couldn't find anything until I decided to go for a nap and took the stuff off my bed...haha. Yup there it was!! But no such luck for my current USB lid. It's in the house somewhere..but where?????

Frustration setting in...can't concentrate...am fully procrastinating again!!! If only I could learn how 'not' to procrastinate. I've discovered it's not the internet cause I get nothing done whether I'm on or off. It's not the tv cause despite having chinese tapes on - I'm actually not that interested..haha...who would think there was a day that I would say that!! It's not window media player cause it has no effect on productivity.....so what could it be???

Two more weeks of uni left.....shouldn't be wasting time...but what could I do??? So many rhetorical questions!!! Trying to seek answers...but its kinda like 'playing piano to a cow'. Wouldn't it be nice to wake up in morning and discover the answers to all the questions one has!! Is this inquisitive or avoidant behaviour?? Somehow something from within tells me its the later......

One would think afer 4 years uni, a few lessons would have been learnt. But seriously, I don't think I've learnt much. Still don't know HOW to study, still don't know anything about WHAT I'm studying, still clueless about WHY I'm studying and still as clueless about everything as ever before. They say life is a journey of discovery...discovery of self...discovery of the world. I don't think I've ventured into that territory yet. Well, if anyone has any studying tips or thoughts about life - let me know. I'd like to learn something before the end of uni. I have really no idea what I'm talking about. Too many things to do, too little time...what in the world am I doing here? No idea. No clue. No brain. Enough blabbering from me for the night. If only writing essays and reports were as easy as blogging. If only......

Back...

My late disappearance was due to a technical failure....I couldn't access my own blog. All I could see was a blank page.

Today I played a little cat and mouse game with my parents. They were out in the city and I was out in the city. I couldn't let them catch me...so I took the less travelled route walking from central to circular quay - think it eventually took me a good half hour to get there.

on the way home, i had all the intention of catching the train and bus...but on my way to circular quay station..i saw 303 (my usual uni bus) so decided to catch that instead….didn’t even realise that was where the bus stop was...anyway, the bus that i caught was running like an hour late....

then...half way on the trip there was mechanical failure with the door...it wouldn't close...but luckily the bus tat was running on time was right behind this bus otherwise I would have had to wait another 1 hour before the next bus would come….

Conclusion: Mission accomplished....

Caught on camera...

Today was showcase for D2MG - which is hip hop and breaking - some dance thingy. F was in it so I was assigned the role of the camera holder..haha. Felt a bit like a tripod actually. Luckily there was a chair to support my arm otherwise it would have been one very shaking movie clip. I forgot how to zoom in and out so ended up panning the stage for most of the show. The dancing was very funky and all - definitely not something I could do this life time.

MP!

what's happening MP! It's so funny...suddenly I see you three times in three consecutive days!! Of course its great but its just so weird since I've hardly ever bump into you!!...Did you buy your lottery?? Must split the winnings!!..haha

Tkd movie night was so so...lots of pizza but it didn't last too long..haha. Clips from uni games was funny. Thanks for the lift J!

Quote of the day...

Most of the things worth doing in the world had been declared impossible before they were done - Louis D. Brandeis

Who are you??

YOU KNOW YOU ARE ASIAN AUSTRALIAN IF ...
1. You regret the fact that you did not learn Mandarin (or other Asian language) properly in Saturday language school.
2. You say you're Australian, totally forgetting your roots.
3. During childhood you didn't have many Asian friends, played bullrush or handball and ate 'sunny boy's for lunch.
4. A form of choosing was done by 'dip, dip dog shit?!
5. You know you have to shop at an Asian grocery store but you have no idea what you are buying nor can you read any of the food labels.
6. You cheer for Australia during the Olympics, know local Australian bands, and know what a VB is.
7. You can speak fluent English without an accent.
8. You know what a Commodore and Falcon are. Yes they are cars!
9. You think you are superior to all other Asians, despite the fact that they beat you in Maths in the HSC, can speak an Asian language fluently and
>know what they are buying n Asian grocery stores.


YOU KNOW YOU ARE CHINESE IF...
1. You think you're the smartest people in the world.
2. You have a mobile with you at all times.
3. You know the abbreviation of a.b.c.
4. Today's steamed rice is tomorrow's fried rice.
5. You're afraid of black people.
6. A bicycle was a good form of transport before.
7. You know you are just superior to all other Asians.


YOU KNOW YOU ARE HONKIE IF...
1. Sentences begin with 'Aiya? and ends with a 'la?
2. Your mobile phone as a form of toy dangling off it.
3. You're offended if someone thinks you're from the mainland.
4. You're afraid of black people.
5. You're moving away from your Honda onto VW's and Peugeot's.
6. Ripped jeans on guys look attractive (either way).
7. You think you are on the same level to Japanese.

Amazing...

Have never seen MP ever inside uni. And the day I do, I see her TWICE!..haha..tat's so funny!! See I don't ignore you! Waving frantically despite on the phone!!!

Saw many people (more than the usual which is F...haha) - B, J and V....thanks for the hot choc - it was very sweet!!!

Skipped TKD today - wasn't in the mood. Getting lazy again. Oh well!!

Goodluck for your presentation F...hope all went well!!